I Won't Let Your Moods Ruin Everything

So I have been making myself a little crazy this week over a boy. It's pretty lame, and it's what I hate most of all the things I do ever. I hate feeling disappointed more than anything. It's the one thing that I really can't deal with. And it's usually my own fault- I build up my hopes about things and when they don't turn out the way I want, I get shattered. Not that I'm shattered by this boy- it was never anything serious. Just hanging out a little. But that's why I avoid doing anything that depends on anyone else. And that's why this being in a band thing is a huge deal for me. I am depending on 3 other people way more than I am really at all comfortable with. And so far, it's surpassing anything I could have ever hoped for. It's amazing.